Autumn grey

Oct 20th, 2009 | By | Category: Spirituality

Summer had her last throw of the dice last Saturday; winning the stage, she went on to lose the race, as she does every year.  Autumn at its worst had arrived by last night; gale force winds buffeting everything and the light fading early from the sky.  The walls of glass at the back of the house looked out into a deep gloom, and for the first time in months the curtains were closed.  The mood of the darkening days was expressed by someone in the classroom who burst into tears as memories came back.

The month of Samhain approaches in two weeks, the first month of the Celtic winter; the month of the dead in which the days grow ever shorter.  It is not hard to see how those in former times dreaded the dark months, those times when even the daylight is not much more than a grey gloominess.

A friend once complained that Dublin winters were so much darker than in Ontario, her home for decades.  It was a baffling comment, the latitudes are not so different.

“How so?” I asked.  “The daylight hours are not that different”.

“It’s the light”, she said.  “In Ontario the snows come and the skies clear and the sunshine on the snow fills everything with brilliant light.  Here there is greyness”.

Perhaps it is about time as well as light; perhaps the closing weeks of the year are a reminder of passing time.

Perhaps a sense of the loss of time can explain as much about people’s  moods as the loss of light.

In Rwanda, in July, there was a constant buoyant mood.  People living in absolute poverty, in conditions we cannot imagine, seemed to laugh and smile throughout the day.  Barefoot children dressed in rags who seemed to have every conceivable reason for despondency, instead seemed blessed with an irrepressible bubbliness; anything might be an occasion for singing and humour.

To a gloomy, middle aged Protestant cleric, it seemed incomprehensible.  Their life seemed uniformly depressing; there seemed no prospect of change. Even the days didn’t change, twelve hours of light and twelve of darkness every day.  There was hardly a surfeit of daylight to account for the infectious happiness that seemed to brighten everything it touched.

“There is not the same sense of time”, a friend suggested.  “When life is so precarious, you live for the present moment.  If you want to be happy, you have to be happy now”.

Perhaps so.  It is always extraordinary to read of soldiers in wartime who can enjoy themselves in moments of respite, despite knowing that a few days, or even a few hours, later, they will be in the thick of fighting from which they may not return.  Social histories of the Second World War suggest there were great shifts in people’s patterns of behaviour because of the constant uncertainty about survival.

The odd logic of an argument suggesting that people’s mood is shaped by their perspective on the future, is that people seem happier when they give no thought to years to come, than they do when the plan everything for years ahead.

There was a First Century carpenter who used to talk about letting tomorrow worry about itself; what he would have made of an Irish autumn, though, will remain unknown until there is no more future.

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  1. We had the wind too down here in Devon, now Autumns carpet is gradually being laid too……What I do find depressing about Winter is driving the 53 miles to work in Plymouth in the dark and then again at night back home in the dark, unable to see the countryside along the A38…….

  2. Les, my driving, which was never the best, is getting worse. I couldn’t face a 53 mile drive, even in the summertime.

  3. By the 21st December the nights start to draw back out…

  4. But that does mean that in eighteen weeks time it will be as dark at it is now!

  5. Call me a Pollyanna!

  6. Bette…roll on December 21st…Thank-you for that it cheered me…

  7. Ian…….what’s even worse is that it is a 106 mile round trip..!!!! not the worst of journeys that I have done to get to work….I spent 10 months going to Cribbs Causeway, Bristol, a round trip of 166 miles!!!!!!..M5 all the way!!!!(the Friday summer car-park)

  8. There are people here who drive halfway across Ireland to work in Dublin every day. I could never cope with it. I never drive into the city, always using the DART. The Boss flies around the streets of the city centre in her car, knowing tricks like paying parking ticket machines by mobile phone.

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