Friday evenings
Peggy would talk about the shipyard in the old days. Thirty-thousand men worked there at one time; at quitting time the streets were a tide of humanity as the riveters and the welders and the multiplicity of other trades walked through the rows of red-bricked houses on their way home.
There have often been moments when that solidarity seemed attractive; when a sharing of daily tasks and the camaraderie of meal breaks offered a richness of friendship; when a Friday night at the working men’s club or in the local for a pint, with a whole weekend ahead, seemed an idyllic life.
Maybe it’s the solidarity that would be the most important, there is no solidarity in this job, most times there is no-one to notice whether you are work every hour or spend the whole day watching television. There is no beginning to the week and no end and no-one to comment on the moments in between.
Perhaps the work is a matter between oneself and God, but it is hard to believe that the Almighty has much interest in much of the stuff of parish life. The latest batch of photocopying is no more likely to be a matter of Divine concern than a diocesan statistical survey.
Maybe the words of the Letter to the Colossians Chapter 3 suggest a value in the boring things, “Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving”. Though it is hard to imagine that even Saint Paul would have found ordering toner as something that merited an eternal inheritance. Maybe Brother Lawrence, who found delight in even doing the washing up in the Seventeenth Century, would make a better hand of parish work than I do.
Perhaps it’s simply a matter of accepting the work as its own reward; even if God is not overly excited by the parish magazine, he does expect that all that is done is done to the best of one’s ability; he does expect that at the end of the day one goes to bed with a sense that one could have done no better.
Much of ministry seems like farming life, repetitive and offering little profit, but done because it is the only life one knows, the only life to which one is called. Seamus Heaney captures that sense of isolation and contentment in the mundane things in Quitting Time:
The hosed-down chamfered concrete pleases him
He’ll wait a while before he kills the light
On the cleaned-up yard, its pails and farrowing crate,
And the cast-iron pump immobile as a herm
Upstanding elsewhere, in another time
More and more this last look at the wet
Shine of the place is what means most to him—
And to repeat the phrase “My head is light,”
Because it often is as he reaches back
And switches off, a home-based man at home
In the end with little. Except this same
Night after nightness, redding up the work,
The song of a tubular–steel gate in the dark
As he pulls it to and starts his uphill work.
Oh my, Ian, you’re sounding not just tired, but lonely and depressed! But at least these pages of yours are valued, as I value them, or you would not have had more than 50 unique visitors in the last 24 hours.
God bless you for what you give us!
Joc,
I think frustrated would probably be a good description. I was photocopying the confirmation service for Sunday and contemplating the Traveller who had been fined €150 for a parking offence when bankers walk away with millions of other people’s money, when I picked up Heaney’s ‘District and Circle’, which I had been given for Christmas. I think there are very strong parallels between the farming and pastoral professions.