“Oh, that my head were a spring of water and my eyes a fountain of tears!” Jeremiah 9: 1
On Wednesday evenings the college would gather for Holy Communion and the preacher on that first week I was there was the vice-principal. Drawing on the Bible story of Jesus reaching down to grab hand of Peter, who was sinking in the water, he preached a moving sermon about the death of his father and about his own emotions. He admitted feeling a sense of anger at the graveside. He could not remember his father, who had reached the grand age of 92, ever giving him a hug in his entire life. It was a sermon about depth of feeling, about deeply felt emotions, about grabbing firmly the hand of God. We all agreed with him. But, of course, I suspect few of us changed the way we were.
We don’t express emotions, particularly as Anglicans, it’s not in our culture. We might get worked up about a rugby match or a soccer match, but when it comes to our relationships with people, we maintain a calm reserve. Before I moved to Dublin from Northern Ireland, I was in a parish where I would have had 20-30 funerals a year and, like everyone else, I would have shaken hands and said, “Sorry for your trouble.” We don’t go in for expressing ourselves in the way that people do in some other countries, it’s just not us. Anglicans don’t do emotion.
But when we turn to Scripture, we are confronted with Jeremiah. Jeremiah would have made the most plain-talking Ulster Presbyterian look reserved. Jeremiah takes on reality head on, the are no mealy-mouthed words, no avoiding the harsh realities of the situation. But look at how Jeremiah rebukes himself for not being more emotional. “Oh, that my head were a spring of water and my eyes a fountain of tears!” The prophet complains at his lack of emotion in the face of all that has happened. He realises that things important to God should draw deeply held feelings from us. Jeremiah does not regard being quietly reserved as appropriate when it comes to the things of God.
God is a God who expresses emotions. Read through the Bible for yourselves and the one thing that God doesn’t do is sit there and say nothing, God never speaks in bland platitudes. Read the book of Jeremiah, read the book of the prophet Hosea, read the Gospels. When his friend Lazarus dies, we are told in St John’s Gospel in Chapter 11 Verse 35, that Jesus weeps. When Jesus looks down on the city of Jerusalem, St Luke Chapter 19 Verse 41 tells us that he expresses his grief at the stubbornness and hard-heartedness of the people, “Oh Jerusalem, Jerusalem”; read the verses and you can hear the pain in his voice. Sometimes I think that Jesus would have been regarded as far too emotional to have made an Anglican bishop.
Expressing emotion in our culture is often seen as a sign of weakness, yet emotion is an expression of how important things are to us. How can we express huge emotions at soccer or rugby matches, but when it comes to the real things, to the things of life and the things of death, then say nothing? I would love an explanation as to why the most deeply felt thoughts and feelings don’t bring out a greater response in us.
We tend to be silent in our private lives and we tend to be silent in our faith. I wonder sometimes if there is anything that would stir us into action. We live in a world where people seem to think it reasonable to treat Christians and Christianity as reasonable subjects for abuse, we live in times where even simple things like respect for God’s name no longer exist.
Why are people allowed to constantly profane God’s name on television and radio? Why do people think it is acceptable to say “Oh, my God” as an ordinary, everyday exclamation? Can you imagine the outcry if other religious groups were subjected to the sort of treatment that we as Christians are expected to tolerate? When it comes to respect for our faith, we do not enjoy parity of esteem.
But we say nothing. We seem afraid to express our emotions. Perhaps it’s because we are reserved, or perhaps it’s because we don’t believe things very strongly. Jeremiah realises that there are situations that demand a deep response, that if we are serious about something, then tears may be the only response we can make.
God was looking for a change of heart among his people in those days of Jeremiah, God looks for a change of heart amongst us today. He looks for people who take him seriously; people who try to live their lives in a different way; people who realise that there are responsibilities in life as well as rights.
I remember listening to that sermon at college and agreeing with what was said, and when I got to the chapel door I just very reservedly shook hands and said “thank you”. When it came to applying what he said in my own life, I did nothing.
I think we all do that, hearing something is one thing, doing something about it is a different matter. “Oh, that my head were a spring of water and my eyes a fountain of tears!,”‘ prays Jeremiah and I think we need to share in that prayer, we need to pray for a faith that stirs up deep emotions.
If we don’t feel deeply – if we think it’s all right to sit lightly to the things of God; if we think it’s all right to be detached in what we believe; if we think that things shouldn’t be taken too seriously, then we need to ask ourselves a question, if my faith doesn’t matter enough to get worked up about, then does it matter at all? Either God is everything or he is nothing.
“Oh, that my head were a spring of water and my eyes a fountain of tears!”
