“ . . they prayed for them that they might receive the Holy Spirit “.  Acts 8:15

Have you ever had a moment when you suddenly found yourself pulled up? A moment when you suddenly realized that other people did not see you in the way that you saw yourself?

I remember times when I have suddenly realized that the person I thought I was differed greatly from the person that other people saw, yet if anyone had asked me what sort of person I was, I think would have told them that I thought  was OK. Maybe not the best, but certainly not the worst, not the greatest of saints, but nor the worst of sinners.

Wouldn’t we all see ourselves in that way? We wouldn’t profess to live perfect holy lives, but we would feel greatly aggrieved if we were accused of being seriously in the wrong. If I came down the church and accused one of you individually of being a miserable sinner, I think you would feel somewhat annoyed.

We don’t feel we are sinful people, yet, without trying to pretend to be pious, the more the years go by the more I realise that I’m not a very good person. The sins change but the human weakness doesn’t. Saint Paul seems to understand what I’m talking about, he writes in Romans 7:19, ‘For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do – this I keep on doing’.

I think most of us if we sat and reflected for five minutes could probably come up with a list of aspects of our life where we are far from perfect. Maybe there are unresolved wrongs from our past, things for which we never said ‘sorry’, maybe there are things now that we really should do something about, maybe there are things that no-one else even know about that need to be addressed.

The option we don’t have is to do nothing. We cannot pretend to be Christians and simply go on living unchanged lives. If we come to church week in and week out knowing that there are things we should be doing something about, and persisting in doing nothing, then we are making little of God and we are making a mockery of our faith.

Writing to Timothy, Saint Paul writes that the Lord, ‘has saved us and called us to a holy life’. We are called to live lives that are different, different from the life we have lived in the past, different from the lives of people around us who profess no faith. If our lives as Christians are not distinctive, are not different, then we have to ask ourselves, ‘are they Christian?’

The problem we face is the very problem that Saint Paul faced, we mean to do things that are right, but it’s so much easier to do the things that are wrong. It’s easier not to say sorry, the excuses come readily to us, we don’t want to rake over old ground again, let sleeping dogs lie. It’s easier to carry on thinking the way we have always thought, sure who knows what we’re thinking anyway. It’s easier to carry on doing the things the way we have always, done them, we’re too old to change now or we’re no worse than the next person.

It’s very hard to change. Maybe there is the odd thing that pulls us up and makes us think, but generally we just carry on. Jesus realises what we were going to be like, he realises that left to our own choice we will just go our own way, so he says that the Father will give us a Counsellor to be with us forever – the Holy Spirit.

What we see in this morning’s reading from the Acts of the Apostles is that being a Christian is about more than what we do. It is about what God does. The Samaritans had been baptised but more was needed, the disciples laid hands on them and ‘they prayed for them that they might receive the Holy Spirit.’ The Holy Spirit is God with us, the Holy Spirit is God in us.

The Holy Spirit that descended upon Jesus in the moment of his baptism by John in the Jordan is the Holy Spirit who is with us now.

It’s 13th January today, the second Sunday of a New Year – I suspect by now that most New Year’s resolutions have fallen by the wayside. Can I suggest a new one? Resolve to take five minutes this afternoon, this evening or tomorrow, and reflect on your own life and honestly ask, ‘what needs to change?’ What do I need to do to become the person God wants me to be?

Don’t wait until something pulls you up – by then it might be too late.